día siete

Day 7. The last day of the #givethanks invitation.

Besides a Savior who binds us together, these people are my most important things. Family is the only thing of any value in this world, and the only thing that carries lasting value in the world to come.

These people redirect my gaze to what is most important; they remind me to realign with what - and who -matters most. Because of them I want to hear Him! more clearly and more frequently. I need the power Jesus wants to send to each of us; I hope they always want to want His power, too.

Being mom brings out my best and my worst, but I am confident that was the plan from the beginning. Family is where we create space for “bests” and “worsts” while continually putting one foot in front of the other, together.

Happy Thanksgiving to all who celebrated today. I wish you peace, gratitude, and the happiest of upcoming holidays!

Love, Christina

Día 7. El último día de la invitación #givethanks.

Además de un Salvador que nos sella juntos, estas personas son lo más importante para mi. La familia es lo único de valor en este mundo y lo único que lleva un valor duradero al mundo venidero.

Estas personas me devuelven a lo que es más importante, me recuerdan en que debo concentrarme y realizarme con lo que más importa. ¡Gracias a todas estas personas estoy aprendiendo a escucharlo! con mayor claridad y frecuencia.

Ser mamá lleva a luz lo mejor y lo peor dentro de mi, pero estoy segura de que ese fue el plan desde el principio. La familia es donde creamos espacio para coda uno de los "mejores" y los "peores" momentos, pero a pesar de eso seguimos adelante, juntos.

Feliz Día de Gracias a todos los que celebraron. ¡Les deseo toda la gratitude y felicidad!

Christina

expectativas perdidas - unmet expectations

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The other night, a good friend laughed saying 90% of her problems stem from missed expectations. That night, in my scripture study, I read the story of Abinadi and all I saw were what could have been unmet expectations.

As a background, King Noah was not a good guy. He had many wives and concubines, caused his people to commit sin, and taxed them practically to death to maintain his lifestyle according to "the desires of his own heart."

Abinadi, a good guy, lived in King Noah's pueblo and the Lord sent Abinadi to tell everyone to believe in Christ and repent (of course).

Abinadi preached the greatest message of all time, and naturally, they wanted to kill him. Two years passed and Abinadi again, this time in disguise, returned. They captured him and took him to King Noah to be killed. But King Noah and the priests first questioned him, specifically asking about scriptures they, as priests, did not understand. Abinadi must have spent hours conveying the most beautiful and brilliant message about the Savior, quoting Isaiah and Jesus in a masterful testimony. He reminded everyone that Jesus Christ would live and die for every one of us. That He loves us! That He helps us! That He knows our pain and heartache and answers prayers and will give us power and bring us home — only to be sent to the dungeon for three days. When the priests brought Abinadi back King Noah said, "We have found an accusation against thee, and thou art worthy of death."

Abinadi was burned alive.

I wonder what went through Abinadi’s mind!

I wonder if he asked himself what he did wrong, if he felt guilty no one listened. I wonder if he felt like God should have chosen someone else for the job. I wonder if he felt he failed.

I don’t think he thought that. So why do I?

My self talk would have immediately spiraled downward, "That didn't go as planned. I followed the spirit! I did what I was told! I was full of power! Did I misunderstand the revelation? Does Jesus love me? What went wrong?"

But when you and I read that story, we see - we know - everything went right.

Abinadi’s last words were: "Oh God, receive my soul."

“No matter what happens to me let God prevail. The Savior has not forgotten me. Let God prevail. He's in charge; I am His. Let God prevail. He will fight my battles. Let God Prevail.“

What does Abinadi (and Alma who was converted then had to run for his life to hide from the guards who hunted him!) teach me? When it all seems to be going wrong, it might actually be going right; and it’s one more opportunity for me to prove that no matter what, more than I want anything else, I first want God to prevail in my life.

Problems do not always mean things are wrong or broken. A situation can be hard, insane even, and still there could be nothing more right.

La otra noche, una buena amiga se rió diciendo que el 90% de sus problemas surgen de expectativas perdidas. Esa noche, en mi estudio de las Escrituras, leí la historia de Abinadí y todo lo que vi fueron lo que podrían haber sido expectativas incumplidas.

Como trasfondo, el rey Noé no era un buen tipo. Tuvo muchas esposas y concubinas, hizo que su pueblo cometiera pecado, y los gravó para mantener su estilo de vida según "los deseos de su propio corazón".

Abinadí, un buen tipo, vivía en el pueblo del rey Noé. El Señor envió a Abinadí para decirle a todos que creyeran en Cristo y se arrepintieran (claro).

Abinadí predicó el mensaje más grande de todos los tiempos y, naturalmente, querían matarlo. Pasaron dos años y Abinadí de nuevo, esta vez disfrazado, volvió a predicar. Lo capturan y lo llevan al rey Noé para que lo maten. Pero primero el rey Noé y los sacerdotes lo interrogan, específicamente sobre las escrituras que se supone que ellos mismos conocen como sacerdotes. Abinadí debe haber pasado horas transmitiendo el mensaje más hermoso y brillante sobre el Salvador, citando a Isaías y a Jesús en un testimonio magistral. Cuando terminó, lo enviaron al calabozo durante tres días. El rey lo trajo de regreso y dijo: "Hemos hallado una acusación contra ti, y eres digno de muerte".

Abinadí fue quemado vivo.

¡Me pregunto qué pensó Abinadí! Si fuera yo, habría pensado: "Eso no salió como estaba planeado. ¡Seguí el espíritu! ¡Hice lo que me dijeron! ¡Estaba lleno de poder! ¡¿Hice algo mal?! ¿Olvidé algo? ¿Entendí mal la revelación? ¡¿Jesús me ama ?! ¡¿Qué salió mal?!"

Pero cuando usted y yo leemos esa historia, vemos y sabemos que todo salió bien. ¡No había nada más que Abinadí pudiera haber hecho!

Garantizado, Abinadí estaba más lleno de fe y arrepentimiento que yo, sus últimas palabras fueron: "Oh Dios, recibe mi alma". Me pregunto si pensó, no importa lo que me pase. Deja que Dios prevalezca. El Salvador no me ha olvidado. Deja que Dios prevalezca. Él está a cargo; Soy su. Deja que Dios prevalezca. Él peleará mis batallas. Deja que Dios prevalezca.

Y eso es solo Abinadí. ¡Todavía está Alma, el sacerdote que sintió el Espíritu Santo y se convirtió! ¿Cuáles eran sus expectativas? ¡Estoy siguiendo a este profeta! ¡Sentí el espíritu! ¡Dios me dijo que esto estaba bien! Pero tuvo que correr y esconderse para salvar su vida mientras el rey lo perseguía diciendo que "estaba incitando al pueblo a rebelarse contra él".

Ser fiel y arrepentido no es el camino fácil. Pero con un pequeño cambio de paradigma, cuando todo parece que va mal, en realidad podría ir bien.

“they thought it was an angel”

Girls! Cari and I had such a great conversation last week and then I wrote these thoughts. I love our living prophet and the questions He asks! I know when we ask questions Jesus gives us answers; we don’t have to wait to be told what to do, or wait for knowledge, from over a pulpit…

I love 3 Nephi 11. By the time we get there in the Book of Mormon, prophets had been preaching Christ’s arrival for centuries. They knew He was coming and taught the same thing, “repent...prepare ye the way of the Lord (1).” 

Repentance (turning hearts to Him, shedding the natural man, unifying our hearts with His — whatever we call it, it all happens through repentance) is how the world - one by one - prepares for his arrival.

Annie’s boot got stuck in a crevice while running.

After upheavals, earthquakes, and darkness the believers went to the temple, “conversing about this Jesus, of whom the sign had been given (2)”

While in the very act of talking about Christ they hear a voice from heaven they don’t understand until the third time, “Behold my Beloved Son [look at my son], in whom I am well pleased, in whom I have glorified my name — hear ye him.”

As each person, one by one, understands the Father’s voice, they look up and “[see] a Man descending out of heaven...and he stood in the midst of them...and [they] wist not what it meant, for they thought it was an angel that had appeared unto them.” 

Pretty walls grandma loved.

The father had just introduced his son to the temple-attending, prophet-listening, conference-going people, yet they did not understand His voice, nor did they know they were looking at Jesus when he stood directly in front of them.

Why?!

How?!

I would not be different if it were me.

“And it came to pass that he stretched forth his hand and spake unto the people, saying: Behold, I am Jesus Christ, whom the prophets testified shall come into the world…I am the light and the life of the world; and I have drunk out of that bitter cup which the Father hath given me, and have glorified the Father in taking upon me the sins of the world, in the which I have suffered the will of the Father in all things from the beginning.

“And it came to pass that when Jesus had spoken these words the whole multitude fell to the earth;” (3)

The Holy Ghost must have punctured everyone’s heart right then, leaving no room for question or doubt. 

Atlantic Ocean

These Nephites (and everyone Christ appeared to after His resurrection — not one recognized Him) paint the perfect picture: I will not hear or recognize Jesus any more when He stands right in front of me, than I do right now. 

President Nelson invited the world “to take steps to hear [Jesus Christ] better and more often.”

Can you hear Him clearly when He talks to you? Goosie, like you say, Do you know what Jesus says when He’s knocking on your heart?

We recognize objects and people: designer clothing, music, instagram stars, logos, photographers’ images; I recognize pictures belonging to specific artists the instant I see them.

How do I make sure I recognize my Savior’s voice, His face, when the Father introduces Him and He stands directly in front of me? 

These days the answer is the same,

“Therefore sanctify yourselves that your minds become single to God, and the days will come that you shall see him; for he will unveil his face unto you, and it shall be in his own time, and in his own way, and according to his own will.” (4)

Repentance.

“Draw near unto me and I will draw near unto you; seek me diligently and ye shall find me; ask and it shall be opened unto you.” (5)

Repentance.

“Behold I stand at the door and knock; if [Annie and Kate] hear my voice, and open the door, I will come in to [her], and will sup with [her] and [she] with me.” (6)

Repentance.

I have not been given a greater gift than that of a Savior who offers me a lifetime of practice of learning to hear His voice.

And a prophet who issues these invitations, reminding me what is most important (drawing more of Christ’s priesthood power into my life) puts the icing on the cake!

Girls, it takes extra effort to shut out the noise that drowns Him out. He will never force us, we have to choose His still, small voice, choose Him.

I love you too much,

Mama

1. Matt 3:2, D&C, etc.

2. 3 Nephi 11:2

3. 3 Nephi 11

4. D&C 88:68

5. D&C 68:63

6. Rev. 3:20

Annie y Kate

Amo a 3 Nefi 11. Cuando llegamos allí en el Libro de Mormón, los profetas habían estado predicando la llegada de Cristo durante siglos. Ellos sabían que Él venía y enseñaron lo mismo: "arrepiéntete ... prepárate el camino del Señor (Mateo 3: 2, D. y C., etc.)".

El arrepentimiento (volviendo los corazones hacia Él, unificando nuestros corazones con el Suyo, como lo llamemos, siempre es a traves del arrepentimiento) es cómo el mundo, uno por uno, se prepara su llegada.

Después de los trastornos, los terremotos y la oscuridad, los creyentes fueron al templo, "conversando sobre este Jesús, de quien se había dado la señal (3 Nefi 11: 2)".

Explorers and Collectors

Mientras hablan de Cristo, escuchan una voz del cielo que no entienden. Hasta la tercera vez no oyen: "He aquí mi Hijo amado [mira a mi hijo], en quien tengo complacencia, en quien he glorificado mi nombre; escúchalo".

A medida que cada persona, uno por uno, comprende la voz del Padre, levantan la vista y "[ven] a un Hombre que desciende del cielo ... y él se paró en medio de ellos ... y [ellos] no sabían lo que significaba". , porque pensaron que era un ángel que se les había aparecido ".

El padre acababa de presentar a su hijo a la gente que asistía al templo, escuchaba al profeta y asistia la conferencia general, sin embargo, no entendían su voz, ni sabían que estaban mirando a Jesús cuando él estaba parado directamente frente a ellos.

¡¿Por qué?!

¡¿Cómo?!

¿Sería diferente si fuera yo?

“Y sucedió que extendió su mano y habló al pueblo, diciendo: He aquí, yo soy Jesucristo, a quien los profetas testificaron que vendrá al mundo ... Yo soy la luz y la vida del mundo; y he bebido de esa copa amarga que el Padre me ha dado, y he glorificado al Padre al tomar sobre mí los pecados del mundo, en el cual he sufrido la voluntad del Padre en todas las cosas desde el principio.

"Y sucedió que cuando Jesús pronunció estas palabras, toda la multitud cayó a la tierra".

El Espíritu Santo debe haber perforado el corazón de todos en ese momento, sin dejar lugar a preguntas o dudas.

Ver no es creer. Sentir sí es.

Estos nefitas (y todos a los que Cristo apareció después de su resurrección, ninguno lo reconoció) pintan el cuadro perfecto: no escucharé ni reconoceré a Jesús nunca más cuando esté parado frente a mí, de lo que lo hago ahorita.

El presidente Nelson invitó al mundo "a tomar medidas para escuchar [a Jesucristo] mejor y con mayor frecuencia".

¿Cuán claramente lo escucho cuando me habla? ¿Sé lo que dice?

Reconocemos fácilmente objetos y personas: ropa de diseñador, estrellas de instagram, logotipos, imágenes de fotógrafos; Reconozco imágenes que pertenecen a artistas específicos en el instante en que las veo. Reconocemos la música segundos después de que suena una canción.

Tones for my new website

¿Cómo reconoceré con la misma facilidad la voz de mi Salvador, su rostro, cuando el Padre lo presenta y se para frente a mí?

En estos días la respuesta es la misma,

“Por lo tanto, santifíquense para que sus mentes se vuelvan solteras con Dios, y llegarán los días en que lo verán; porque él te revelará su rostro, y será a su debido tiempo, a su manera y según su propia voluntad. (D. y C. 88:68)

Arrepentimiento.

Collector.

“Acércate a mí y yo me acercaré a ti; búscame diligentemente y me encontrarás; pide y se te abrirá ”. (D. y C. 68:63)

Arrepentimiento.

“He aquí que estoy en la puerta y llamo; si [Annie y Kate] escuchan mi voz y abren la puerta, entraré a [ella] y cenaré con [ella] y [ella] conmigo ”. (Apocalipsis 3:20)

Arrepentimiento.

No se me ha dado un regalo mayor que el de un Salvador que me ofrece toda una vida de práctica para aprender a escuchar Su voz.

Y un profeta que emite estas invitaciones, recordándome lo que es más importante: atraer más poder del sacerdocio de Cristo a mi vida, ¡pone la guinda del pastel de chocolate más húmedo, delicioso y decadente!

Chicas, se necesita un esfuerzo adicional para evitar el ruido que lo ahoga. Él nunca nos obligará, tenemos que elegir escuchar Su voz apacible y pequeña, elegirlo a Él.

Las amo demasiado,

Mamá

You redheads, running off to the great unknown, is my favorite view of all time. That and starring at your gorgeous father…

less than the dust of the earth and UNworthy

Annie (or Kate) took each of these pictures. Portra 400. Indie Film Lab. On a Diana F+.

“Just give it a rest,” I told myself today. “Read your scriptures like a normal person.”

Kate and I. Bunratty Castle from the nursery. Dublin.

This last year’s fascination with faith and repentance has been life changing, completely life changing. I have never felt so much of Christ’s power, hope, or joy flow into my life since learning for myself what faith and repentance are, without excess culture, stigma, or common taglines attached. 

But today I thought, “Maybe there is something more important out there I need to learn.” I began my study catching up on Come Follow Me. No more than two lines in I followed a footnote which sent me to John the Baptist, “Repent ye; for the kingdom of heaven is at hand.”

Annie’s picture of a college in Dublin on her Diana F+

“Oh dear,” I thought, laughing out loud. Like Jacqueline in Ever After, “I knew it! I just knew it!” Nothing more important. And every verse and footnote that followed taught the exact same principle. I followed where I was led and worlds opened up - my brain filled with light, my head doing that weird thing it does where I feel like it’s expanding - as the Holy Ghost opened my eyes and ears to what these incredible prophets have been teaching for centuries: Christ is coming; we prepare by repenting. 

Repentance. “You keep using that word. I do not think it means what you think it means.” Inigo Montoya. And it is my new favorite word!

What is repentance? Turning my heart back to Jesus. I wonder if it is the answer to every ailment: something I’ve done wrong, something I’m sad about, angry about, hurt about, something my body is freaking out about...

Repentance to me has become, “Not my will, but thine, be done.”

The Amazing Christ Church Cathedral. Dublin.

And it’s hard. And uncomfortable. And sometimes I don’t know if I can say the same words for the 792th time this morning (We’ve all only been awake for one hour and I‘m losing it!) But if I have faith in Christ there is no other way! Like the Brother of Jared when asking for his miracle, “...O Lord, and do not be angry with thy servant because of his[my] weakness before thee; for [I] know that thou art holy and dwellest in the heavens, and that we are unworthy before thee...thou hast been merciful unto us. O Lord, look upon me in pity...O Lord, thou hast all power…”

The Brother of Jared saying, “we are unworthy” and “ look upon me in pity?!” My prayers could maybe use a reality check…

The brother of Jared understood faith and repentance: Christ’s greatness and his own unworthiness, his less than the dust of the earth-ness, his unworthy creature-ness. Maybe culture has me focus on all the stuff I am supposed to do: obedience, worthiness, as-much-as-perfect-as-possible-ness…

But what about King Benjamin calling me an “unworthy creature” and “less than the dust of the earth”? What about the Brother of Jared worrying God was going to “take him out” when he saw His finger? What about Isaiah’s words when he saw Christ? What about our Mother Eve?

Yep, they’re all blurry. But aren’t they beautiful! Dublin. Kate and Grandma.

REPENTANCE. Is it a scary “R” word we are embarrassed to talk about? Let alone do...

Every scripture I read today either said, “Repent, I come quickly” or “Sanctify yourself, I come to you.” He wants to visit us! Talk to us! Lift us, help us, change us!

How do I sanctify myself? I don’t. Jesus does, when I repent. My heart becomes one with His and His promise is clear, “...sanctify yourselves that your minds become single to God, and the days will come that you shall see him; for he will unveil his face unto you, and it shall be in his own way, and according to his own will.” That is my favorite verse in scripture.

Just as Jesus said to Enos, “Because of thy faith in Christ.”

That is what faith in Christ is! Believing that Jesus has all power, all strength to change, save and rescue me — if I will give up my will to His. And I do it like He did: in prayer.

I am convinced there is nothing more important in my life than Faith in Christ and Repentance — learning, doing, teaching the people I love.

Bunratty Castle from the Nursery. I took this one and do love it…

This verse from Moroni hit home today, “And what is it that ye shall hope for? Behold I say unto you that ye shall have hope through the atonement of Christ and the power of his resurrection, to be raised unto life eternal, and this because of your faith in him according to the promise.”

It’s not a question of if we are going to the celestial kingdom. If I have faith I am going because faith means I am repenting. Jesus takes everyone in who recognizes His goodness and their complete dependence on Him, their unworthiness.

“And this is the means whereby salvation cometh. And there is none other salvation save this which hath been spoken of; neither are there any conditions whereby man can be saved except the conditions which I have told you.” King Benjamin’s perfect dying testimony.

Annie and I. By Kate. “Kate, can you see us and the cathedral in the back?” “Ya, I can!”

Favor de disculparme hoy. Casi es la 1 de la mañana y no tuve tiempo para traducirlo bien. Los quiero mucho mucho! Espero que el espíritu los de todo el sentido que traigo en mi corazon para con estas palabras. xo. Christina

"Solo dale un descanso", me dije hoy. "Lee tus escrituras como una persona normal".

La fascinación de este año pasado por la fe y el arrepentimiento ha cambiado la vida, completamente cambió la vida. Nunca sentí que el poder, la esperanza o la alegría de Cristo fluyeran en mi vida desde que aprendí por mí mismo lo que son la fe y el arrepentimiento, sin un exceso de cultura, estigma o lemas comunes.

Pero hoy pensé: "Tal vez hay algo más importante que necesito aprender". Comencé mi estudio poniéndome al día con Come Follow Me. No más de dos líneas seguí una nota al pie que me envió a Juan el Bautista: “Arrepiéntete; porque el reino de los cielos está cerca ".

“Mom, can I take a picture of [insert every single thing she saw]?”

"Caramba!", pensé, riéndome a carcajadas. Como Jacqueline en la pelicula Ever After, “¡Lo sabía! ¡Lo sabía! Nada más importante. Y cada verso y nota al pie que siguió enseñó exactamente el mismo principio. Seguí a donde me condujeron y se abrieron mundos: mi cerebro se llenó de luz, mi cabeza hizo esa cosa extraña que hace donde siento que se está expandiendo, cuando el Espíritu Santo abrió mis ojos y oídos a lo que estos increíbles profetas han estado enseñando siglos: Cristo viene; nos preparamos arrepintiéndonos.

Arrepentimiento, “Sigues usando esa palabra. No creo que signifique lo que tú piensas que significa.

Iñigo Montoya tenía razón: podría no significar lo que crees que significa. ¡Y es mi nueva palabra favorita!

¿Qué es el arrepentimiento? Volviendo mi corazón a Jesús. Y hasta ahora me pregunto si es la respuesta a cada dolencia: algo que he hecho mal, algo por lo que estoy triste, enojado, herido, algo por lo que mi cuerpo está volviendo loco ...

El arrepentimiento para mí se ha convertido en "No se haga mi voluntad, sino la tuya".

Y es dificil. E incomodo. No se siente muy bien! Y a veces no sé si puedo decir las mismas palabras por la 792ª vez esta mañana (¡Solo hemos estado despiertos durante una hora y lo estoy perdiendo!) Pero si tengo fe en Cristo no hay otra ¡camino! Al igual que el Hermano de Jared cuando pregunta por su milagro, “... Señor, y no te enojes con tu siervo por su [mi] debilidad ante ti; porque [yo] sé que eres santo y mora en los cielos, y que somos indignos ante ti ... has sido misericordioso con nosotros. Oh Señor, mírame con lástima ... Oh Señor, tienes todo el poder ..

El Hermano de Jared diciendo: "no somos dignos" y "¿me miras con pena?" ¡Mis oraciones necesitan una revisión de la realidad!

El hermano de Jared entendió la fe y el arrepentimiento: la grandeza de Cristo y su propia indignidad, menos que el polvo de la tierra, su criatura indigna. Tal vez la cultura quiere que me concentre en todas las cosas que se supone que debo hacer. Ya sabes, mi obediencia, dignidad, lo más perfecto posible ...

Pero, ¿qué pasa con el rey Benjamín que me llama una "criatura indigna" y "menos que el polvo de la tierra"? ¿Qué pasa con el hermano de Jared preocupado de que Dios lo "saque" cuando vio su dedo? ¿Qué pasa con las palabras de Isaías cuando vio a Cristo y a la Madre Eva?

ARREPENTIMIENTO. ¿Es una palabra aterradora "R" de la que nos da vergüenza hablar? Y mucho menos hacer ...

Cada escritura que leí hoy decía: "Arrepiéntete, vengo rápido" o "Santifícate, vengo a ti". El quiere visitarnos! ¡Háblanos! ¡Levántanos, ayúdanos, cámbianos! ¿Cómo me santifico? Yo no. Jesús lo hace, cuando me arrepiento. Mi corazón se vuelve uno con el suyo y su promesa es clara: “... santifíquense que sus mentes se vuelven solteras con Dios, y llegarán los días en que lo verán; porque él te revelará su rostro, y será a su manera, y según su propia voluntad. Ese es mi verso favorito en las Escrituras.

Tal como Jesús le dijo a Enós: "Por tu fe en Cristo".

Eso es lo que es la fe en Cristo, creer que Jesús tiene todo el poder, toda la fuerza para cambiarme, salvarme y rescatarme, si simplemente renuncio a mi voluntad. Y lo hago como lo hizo: en oración.

Estoy convencido de que no hay nada más importante en mi vida que la fe en Cristo y el arrepentimiento: aprender, hacer y enseñar a las personas que amo.

Este verso de Moroni llegó a casa hoy, “¿Y qué es lo que esperarán? He aquí, te digo que tendrás esperanza a través de la expiación de Cristo y el poder de su resurrección, para resucitar a la vida eterna, y esto debido a tu fe en él de acuerdo con la promesa ".

No se trata de si vamos al reino celestial, no se trata de una cuestión. Si tengo fe, voy porque la fe significa que me estoy arrepintiendo. Jesús acepta a todos los que reconocen su bondad y su completa dependencia de él, su indignidad. En otras palabras, todos los que se arrepienten.

“Y este es el medio por el cual viene la salvación. Y no hay otra salvación excepto esta de la que se ha hablado; tampoco hay condiciones por las cuales el hombre pueda salvarse, excepto las condiciones que te he dicho. El perfecto testimonio moribundo del rey Benjamín.

my pool of bethesda

I am crazy for this blog of mine! It has evolved into a series of open letters to my powerful girls. This space will forever be for my heart, and all are welcome.

Today’s letter is addressed to both of my babies.

AnnieKate!

While you were sleeping I had a powerful experience reading a story in John, and I could hardly wait to share.

One day Jesus found himself beside the pool of Bethesda. Many congregated here because they believed it possessed healing qualities — when the water bubbled, whoever was first in the pool was healed!

Jesus addressed a man who had been unable to walk for 38 years! I imagine the man spent much of his time watching everyone else be healed. Jesus asked him, “Wilt thou be made whole?”

The man, not recognizing the Savior, answered, “Sir, I have no man, when the water is troubled, to put me into the pool: but while I am coming, another steppeth down before me.”

Lights seemed to turn on in my head and their short conversation struck me! This interaction became a lesson on Introspection, Trust, No More Excuses, and always, Faith in Christ.

The man told himself: “I would be made whole, but I can’t.” In other words: I can't walk. I move slowly. Everyone beats me. I've already tried it and when I try I fail. I have made multiple attempts and they did not work.”

Without hesitation Christ says, “Rise, take up thy bed, and walk.”

The man packed up his bed and walked away! But was he free of every problem every day after?! Nope! Was he "whole" right away?! Nope!

But he could walk!

My lesson from the pool of Bethesda was: no excuses; keep a steady closeness to the Savior, no matter how weak, unfit or unable I feel. He will do the rest.

Girls, in your attempts to “dream big and after you’ve done that dream bigger,” will you kick perfectionism and quick results to the curb?!

In seeking Him who makes you whole, your first miracle might be “getting your legs back.” But others will follow! You may witness one at a time, but over the course of your life - miracle by miracle - He will enlighten your mind and soften your heart, helping you become exactly who you were born to be. And He will do it because He loves you, because He is perfect.

Sometimes our invitations to “be made whole,” come via another’s voice, and they can be hard to recognize. Your mind might play tricks on you and say, "Well, actually there's this thing I have...it’s hard...and that thing...then this other thing happens...and no one is helping me.... But, yes! When I clear this all up then I will come and ‘be made whole!’"

If you will instead say,

"Yes, I’ll choose faith to be made whole. I will take the smallest possible step toward healing. And when I try and it doesn't seem to work I'm going to try again! And no matter how many times I fall I will not stay there! I know the Savior’s way fills me with happiness that spans the eternities, so I'm going to keep trying so He can mold me into exactly who I want to become,"

you will never be wrong.

It does not matter how many detours you take, how many times you slip up or fall down,

it is in your turning toward Him, again and again and again, that He makes you whole.

That is saving grace.

One word of caution: beware the differences between shame and guilt! Guilt feels like: I made a mistake but when I say “I’m sorry” I am filled with confidence, unity, happiness — I am healed. Shame feels like: I am bad. I have made too many mistakes, there is no going back. I am not worthy of love, blessings or forgiveness.

Shame lies. And shame never comes from God.

For now you live in an imperfect world and you will lose your footing. When that happens, hear Christ at the Pool of Bethesda saying to you, “Annie/Kate, Rise, take up thy bed and walk.” He is always helping you, one miracle at a time, even when you don’t see them right away — Bethesda does mean house of mercy or house of grace after all.

Never give up on yourself, your faith, your God. He knows exactly how you feel, all of the time, and He will pick you up as many times as you need.

I love you with all of me.

He loves you always.

Mama

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A family who says yes to it all, smiling the whole time

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